Asking For Guidance

Lord,what do you want to tell me about the muse?

I’m here Lord, to hear your guidance.  This is your doing Lord.

First let me open up with how I’ve been feeling about this, as you’ve instructed.  Honestly, Lord, I don’t want to do this.  I am fearful that it’s potential failure could mean the invalidation of our communion.  Plus I just don’t really see how this particular product is suited to my background and experience.  It doesn’t seem like the right fit for me.

It doesn’t matter if it fits if it’s my will.  If it’s my will, it will be done.  You have asked for me to work through you, and this is how I choose to do so.  Thank you for being open with me, that is exactly how to best get  the conversation going.  I know how you are feeling.  I want you to know that that is exactly the way that I want you to feel.  I want you to be unsure of yourself, but confident in me.  Your doubt will glorify me, because it will be a testament to the fact that this will be my doing, my will expressed through you.

May thy will be done, in, around, and through my life, Lord Jesus.

Working on muse – allowing the Lord to work through me. It’s interesting, because it feels like I’m discovering rather than creating.

Lord, I just got sidetracked.  I am sorry.  Please work through me.

Again working on muse.
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I just looked up the word muse, because I’ve been feeling a bit uneasy about using it to speak of what I’m doing with the Lord. I’ve been using the term because it’s the term used by the author of the 4-hour Workweek, which was what spurred this focus on creating a product that could create enough income to allow me to free my mental energy from a 9-5 job and on to the Lord, where it belongs.

What I found as the definition was the following:
muse [myooz] Show IPA verb, mused, mus·ing.
–verb (used without object)
1. to think or meditate in silence, as on some subject.
2. Archaic . to gaze meditatively or wonderingly.
–verb (used with object)
3. to meditate on.
4. to comment thoughtfully or ruminate upon.

I don’t think that’s the right term to use going forward. Thinking about it now, it should really be called my ministry.

With Ministry defined as:
1. the service, functions, or profession of a minister of religion.

And Minister defined as:
5. a person acting as the agent or instrument of another.

Or perhaps I should be using the term Charity:
7. Christian love; agape.

While this is being done out of love for the Lord, and His love for His children, I’m not sure if charity is the right word because is connotes a sense of pure giving, whereas this is intended to produce income (resources) for other projects down the line.

Maybe, ‘Agape work’? Or ‘work of agape’?

Lord, what would you have me refer to it as?

Agape is the pinnacle expression of a man. If you were not doing this from agape, I would not be working through you. The whole point is that this is a selfless act, and an act of trust because of your love (agape) of me.

So, ‘work of agape’?

How about ‘the agape project’.

I like it! Work feels like something I don’t want to do or have to force myself to do, whereas project feels like something that has promise at its conclusion, something that will produce a better tomorrow through my toil.

There you have it, then.