Confession

[This entry is a transcription of an audio recording]

Lord I come to you and want to follow your instruction, and start off with not with an invitation, but with sharing and opening up and sharing what’s going on with me.

So, on my way home from work today, I was getting on the freeway and, like happens more often than I’d like to admit, I became upset at someone else’s actions, another driver’s actions, and they weren’t allowing me to have the right of way that I know that I should have had. And so I got upset, and let’s just say that I didn’t act the way that.. well no, I want to be completely open.. so I got upset, I forced myself over, I gave them the finger, and I completely was taken over by the moment and my anger. I just wanted to say that I’m really sorry about how I reacted, and I want to ask you for your guidance and your strength and your patience in dealing with those types of situations in the future. So Lord, I ask for your help.

Michael, your reaction is due to pride. You think you deserve something, and you’re not willing to give up your position of entitlement. Regardless of the rules, the human rules, laws, etc.. I care less about that than I do about your spiritual condition.

Your pride is just like everyone else’s.. an insidious problem. It stems from the root of your spiritual condition, and has a lot to do with your mind trying to control its environment. As you know, your environment is not controllable. Your environment is subject to many forces of which very little you have, or can have, control over. But your mind doesn’t want to accept that. Your mind is constantly looking for ways to dominate the situation, to rationalize, to come out on top, and the more you are able to subject yourself and submit your self to your heart, therefore to me, you will continue to have these occurrences.

Lord, thank you. From what I’m hearing you say, it feels like you’re saying that I haven’t submitted myself. If I’m continuing to have these occurrences, then that’s a sign that my heart is not conditioned properly to be completely influenced, or completely driven by your will. So is that true?

Michael, of course it’s true. It’s obvious.. even though you have reached a point where you’re able to hear from me, which is an absolutely wonderful thing, that doesn’t mean that your spiritual condition is perfect, or even near perfect. Your spiritual condition has a lot of room for growth. Now the important piece is that you are coming to me for that growth – you’re coming to me for guidance and support, and that is exactly how you are going to grow, and you are going to grow more quickly than anyone can hope to grow without my guidance and support. So that’s good. But to answer your question, no, you are not in a spiritual condition that I would say is in tune with …

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