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First things first
Posted on January 28th, 2010 No commentsI’ve been “working so hard” trying to live out what I felt I was being called to do, but I feel more lost now than ever. I feel like I’m grasping for anything rather than being guided by the Lord.
I prayed:
How do I make the most of my life?
The answer, I found, is by first staying focused on an intimate relationship with Christ. What does it matter what I’ve “done” if I don’t have that relationship? How can I have any assurance that what I’ve “done” aligns with His will for my life without that relationship?So the first step is intimacy with Christ. That’s done by spending time with Him. Bible study, prayer, worship. I haven’t done much of any of those lately, even though I love the Lord with all my heart. But, when you love someone, don’t you want to be with that person? You don’t say “I love you, and I’m going to do a bunch of stuff for you to prove it.” You spend time, learn about the person, talk, share feelings, give, adore.
I feel like the “web stuff” I’ve been so enthralled with is like the Father has given me a tool, and I’ve been so focused on the tool itself, that I stopped paying attention to the Father before He told me what He’d like me to do with the tool. It’s like a father showing his son a hammer, and the boy inspects it, learns how to use it, and then goes forth, without another word with his father, to see who would be willing to pay him to use his hammer for them. All the while, his father had plans for the boy to build a palace, under His guidance.I choose to focus on you Father. I know you are omnipotent, omniscient, omnipresent. I choose to let go of my own reasoning and desires. I choose to open myself, once more, as a vessel for you to do your work through me.
If / when I don’t feel “connected” with the Lord, I need to remember that it’s me, not Him. He is there. He wants to bless me and guide me. The question is whether I am allowing Him to, through my own free will (my choices). Am I doing the things and making the choices that result in opening up to a stronger bond / relationship? Or are my actions / choices pushing Him away, ignoring Him, or shutting Him out of my life? (sin, etc) If I am shutting Him out, I can not expect Him to be active in my life.
Hell is separation from God. I choose God.
I feel as though there’s an as-yet scientifically unidentified link between people and the divine (God and His domain). Being saved provides the key to accessing this link, then sanctification enables us to more fully allow the benefit of this link in our lives. Glorification then is where our “selves” actually pass through this link and “dwell” with God for eternity. This link may be psychological (software), physiological (hardware), or both.
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