My Walk with Christ
An ordinary guy on a supernatural journey.
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Reproval – It Hurts but it’s Welcome
Posted on October 24th, 2010 No commentsLord Jesus, I want to try something right now with you. I have a couple hours of time alone that I can use for whatever I want. But, I am coming to you for your guidance. What is your will for me in this moment? What would you have me do with this time?Michael, I have already laid out steps that I want you to take right now. Wade in my word, connect with me in prayer, import all of your old entries into BoW. You’re getting ahead of yourself, Michael. You’re getting ahead of me. It is understandable that you are excited that the site attracted its first signups – that’s great, it really is. But you are not ready for it, as you know. It doesn’t do you, them or me any good for them to signup when the site is not ready for it.I understand. So if it’s the case that someone signed up already, can’t I interpret that as your will? I emailed them to ask for unbiased feedback – isn’t that a good thing?Not necessarily, Michael. You don’t need their feedback yet. It’s not supposed to be ready yet.Should I take the feature down?It may be hard for you to hear, but yes. You’re scattered right now, Michael. You’re going a million miles an hour in all different directions, and you’re not doing what I’ve clearly asked you to do. You had concern about whether you were truly hearing from me. I answered that concern with asking you to focus your energy on loading your old entries into BoW. There’s information there you need to review – there’s purpose behind the task. It’s not menial, it’s foundational.I’m so sorry, Lord. I will take the journal creation feature down. Now that I’ve put so much energy into it, I’ll likely want to load in all my entries faster so I can get back to making progress on the ministry.Michael, slow down! This is not a race. You need to stop for a second and simply accept what I am asking you to do. What I am asking you to do has merit, in and of itself, toward my plan.I understand. I’m sorry. I trust you, Lord. This is not my ministry, it’s yours. I need to remember that more consistently, it appears.What you’re doing is noble, and the progress you’ve made is good, but your intent is wrong.I don’t understand…Your intent is on the progress. You keep thinking, “what can I do now” or “what’s next” or “what things need to be prioritized for the future”. What you should be thinking is “what has my Lord asked me to do”, no more, no less.You’re right, of course. You made it clear what you wanted me to do, and I have not focused on that task. I have instead focused on tasks that seemed more fun, more rewarding, or more productive from my perspective. I neglected your call, and now I’ve likely run the risk of heading in a direction, wasting time on things, that you did not intend.Michael, like I said, your work represents good progress. There are positive qualities to the site being where it is today. But I want you to finish the task I’ve given you, and you will have a new perspective on things that will be of great value as we continue down this path.Yes, Lord. I will do what you ask right now. Thank you.Later…
Lord Jesus, I had a thought that I wanted to run by you first. Would it be ok to leave the feature up that allowed people to sign up for a journal, as long as I tell them that the site is in BETA right now? Tell them that it works, but they need to be familiar with WordPress at this time and be willing to provide ongoing feedback about the site?Michael, why do you want people to sign up?Because this is my dream, my mission, what I feel you are calling me toward.I am calling you toward this, but why is it your dream?It’s my dream because I had asked you for a long time to reveal to me how you wanted to use my life, and I heard that this was the answer. I want people to sign up because I want them to grow closer to you.Are you sure that’s the only reason? I’ll give you a hint, it’s not.Ok… I think I’m sensing that the other reason is to attain a sense of accomplishment, isn’t it…Yes, Michael. Let me be clear – this will not be your accomplishment, it will be mine. In order for this site to have true power in my name, you MUST rest its success or its failure in my hands. Trust me, I can make anything successful that I want to, despite your shortcomings.Ok, Lord. I understand. So the answer to my question is no?Michael, I do not want you distracted from your task right now. So the answer is no. Thank you for checking with me. It shows respect and trust.Thank you Lord.Leave a reply