Called to baptism

While studying the Rock San Diego sermon (wait section), a series of events led me to give up on watching what was turning out to be a great learning experience.  I took that to mean, that God feels that I had seen enough the time being.  I took that as a sign that I was to follow what was being taught and Wait for the Lord in prayer.  I said “I love you Jesus” over and over and over, and as my thoughts dispersed, I sat waiting.  This is the dialog that ensued:

(tears filled my eyes and my head bowed down uncontrollably)

(I started to get worried here about what was coming – I was in disbelief that this is where He was headed)

Terror filled me, but then I realized that Jesus would not mean He wanted me to take my own life.

Then I had a clue what He was asking for – baptism