Test of Obedience

I missed prayer time at lunch.  I prayed at night and was struck by how silent I felt God was.  When I pressed to hear His voice, I got the impression like:

‘what do you want me to say?’

 Now, looking back, I realize this is probably in response to me missing my appointment with Him.  He needs to be my #1 priority.  If He’s #1, then I will not miss my time with Him.

Then I felt He gave me a test of obedience.  The impression I got, which came completely out of nowhere (again I get the feeling that unexpected thoughts are a sign of His word in prayer) was that I am to grow my mustache back in – completely random – and ‘see what happens’.  I have no idea why I feel He asked me to do this, I somewhat honestly question this is from Him, but if it is Him, and He wants me to ‘see what happens’, I need to obey and let Him show me how my obedience will translate into a more personal relationship with Him.  I also got the impression about the mustache that it was a subtle outward expression of my obedience, rather than an inward one.

Called to baptism

While studying the Rock San Diego sermon (wait section), a series of events led me to give up on watching what was turning out to be a great learning experience.  I took that to mean, that God feels that I had seen enough the time being.  I took that as a sign that I was to follow what was being taught and Wait for the Lord in prayer.  I said “I love you Jesus” over and over and over, and as my thoughts dispersed, I sat waiting.  This is the dialog that ensued:

(tears filled my eyes and my head bowed down uncontrollably)

(I started to get worried here about what was coming – I was in disbelief that this is where He was headed)

Terror filled me, but then I realized that Jesus would not mean He wanted me to take my own life.

Then I had a clue what He was asking for – baptism