Choosing the Lord

I have been distracted by WoW again. I know, I can’t believe it either.

This post is a way for me to get my thoughts down on paper. It’s been two months since I last journaled. I have definitely felt ‘astray’, disconnected.

I sense the Lord asking me to not only uninstall the game, but to actually delete all my characters so that I can never turn back. I sensed that it would be a key part of my growth. I have been struggling lately, however, with knowing whether to trust in these ‘senses’ or ‘thoughts’ that I’ve been thinking have been coming from God in answer to prayer. My thought on that is that 1) Satan is the great deceiver, 2) God’s instruction will only point to Christ and my relationship with Him, 3) this sense of giving up WoW is definitely pointing toward Christ, or at least away from distractions from Him. Also, my learning has revealed that being born again in Christ involves a death to your former self. My former self is definitely associated with WoW. My life in Christ has nothing to do with WoW. The question then becomes, what do I really believe. Am I willing to put the ‘nail’ into WoW because of my faith in Christ? The answer is definitely yes.

I just deleted all my characters in WoW. I feel like there’s been sacrifice, like a part of me has died – I literally feel a sense of mourning. It’s sad to say that a game has become a part of me – how embarassing. I pray that this act of faith brings me into a closer relationship with my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. I trust that this is all part of His plan. Maybe this way His way of testing my faith, by building something up as so important so that I had to choose to sacrifice it for Him. I remember last time I quit WoW, that I had thought about deleting the characters, but quickly dismissed it. I wonder if that was a sign to Him that I wasn’t truly ready for as close of a relationship as I thought I was ready for. I hope this means that I have grown. I pray this act was a big step in the growth of my relationship with Christ.

As a side note, while I tried deleting my characters, I ran into a snag with one of them because he was a guild leader. So I had to go back into the game, yadda yadda. It was like Satan’s last attempt to get his claws back in to me.