Michael, why are you not excited?

Why are you nervous?

Why did the last task feel forced?

Why do you care about what you want to be doing? You already know that this is not your project. You already know that I will bless what you allow me to do through you. You already know there is blessing in obeying me. Many times, there is even more blessing when you obey despite naturally not wanting to obey. When you show me that you are doing what I want you to do for no other reason than I want you to do it, that will be immensely blessed.

You’re allowing unholy forces to influence you. Alcohol, the computer games you are playing, and the television programs you are watching are creating this dissonance in you. It’s part of the enemy’s plan. It’s something that many people are caught up in and don’t even know it. You tell them to control their influences and they don’t take it seriously. These influences condition your heart in ways that are contrary to my conditioning. I have to recondition the damage done. Instead of building upon what we had, now we need to recover lost ground.

Michael, remember that it’s not necessarily all games, or all television that is contrary to my nature. There is a lot that is, but it doesn’t mean that I’m asking you to not do those things entirely. It’s the nature of the games and the nature of the television programs that determines whether it can damage our relationship – whether it will cause dissonance, which is what you’re feeling now.

Well, you are not ready for your next assignment. You need to realign with me to be ready. The more consistent our communion, the more protected you will be against these forces. Rely on me for your strength. Call on me in times of anticipated weakness. I will be there, and will act through you if you call upon me.

Don’t be sorry. Repent. Turn your back on the behavior and renew your commitment to our relationship. You haven’t lost much.. yet. Get things back on track and we’ll have much to do.

How do you feel?

Your guilt is no longer present. There’s some residual clean up on your main computer at home, but I trust that will be taken care of tonight.

Michael, you are ready for your next assignment.

Michael, the process has already begun. And, the computer games were a primary issue. You know that they impact your entire life – your relationship with me, your relationship with your wife and children, your focus on your commitments like work. That one act is a huge step back in the right direction. You do need more follow through, but we don’t need to hold anything up in waiting. If you do not follow through, your ministry will be affected negatively.

What do you want to do Michael?

I want to see where your heart is.

You are right, Michael. The technical components are a ‘backburner’ issue right now. Right now, as I’ve been preparing you for (as you know), I want you to comprehensively read what you have written as a result of your reading your journal. Then, I want you to review all entries that have either ‘myvoice’ or ‘godsvoice’ and see if there’s anything you’ve missed. Then, you are to continue to write and edit the content.

I’m giving you one task, but breaking it into chunks that are more simple to understand and follow. Also, you will know when you’re done when I tell you you’re done.

No, Michael. I want this task to be considered complete when I tell you it’s complete and direct you into another task. This will require you to continue to consult with me to determine when you are complete. This task will be one in which I guide much more intimately. Stay tuned to me in the moments and I’ll guide your keystrokes.

As am I.