Resting and Testing

I’m home alone. The girls are visiting family. I’m sitting here watching movies I don’t normally get a chance to watch with young girls in the house. I get the feeling that I should use this time… I get the feeling like, ‘if I really think / believe that I’m in direct communication with the Creator, why wouldn’t I spend every available minute of my day, every discretionary moment, if not every waking moment, in contact with Him?’ I started to fight off that feeling, having just started another movie. Then I had the feeling that, what if I just reached out to Him, just invited Him in, and see where it takes me. Even if it took the remainder of the night, wouldn’t that be infinitely more valuable to me than watching a movie? Read the rest of this entry »

May 23, 2009

I have realized very recently that I have been focusing too much on what I should do for the lord, that I may have distracted myself from allowing him to do what he wants in me. I need healing. I have scars that need my father’s touch. I need to open my heart to him for healing.

I felt the Lord speak to me tonight saying:

Just do what you do, and I will tell you what to do with it. It may be big, it may be small, but you will experience me through it.