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Drinking
Posted on February 1st, 2009 No commentsLast night, I chose to have a beer (we bought a 6-pack for super bowl party). I was feeling guilty about it, and in prayer I said:
Lord I hope that I haven’t disappointed youI forget exactly what the response was, but I remember thinking, "wow that was harsh". Then I said:
Wow, that’s how it is?The response was:
Michael, I love youThen I got the impression that because of that love, there are going to be times when I don’t like the answers to my questions, but those answers are in my own best interest. I may not be sinning by drinking a beer, but God "will not protect me from the consequences of my decisions" and that I am "playing a dangerous game if I continue."
I also said:
Lord, please help me to keep [drinking] under control.The response was:
I will not help you drink [alcohol].His rules / commands are for my own good. I must trust Him.
I trust you Lord. Thank you for loving me and for guiding my life. -
The Value of My Wasted Time
Posted on February 1st, 2009 No commentsIf God has been designing my life, which I know He has, then what, I wonder, was my EQ / WoW phase all about? What does God mean to use all of that time for? Was it wasted time? Or was it time spent that has taught me something that will be used for His purpose?
The greatest takeaway / lesson from that experience was the model of using positive reinforcement feedback to strengthen the bond between the user and the system. Can this be used by God? What would a system look like that used this model to bring people closer to Him?