Lord, Help!

[This is a transcription of an audio recorded entry]

This is a voice entry about what’s going on right now and I just wanted to express it and record it, so I don’t lose sight of my train of thought on this, and so I can invite God’s guidance and help in getting it resolved.

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Agape Project

Lord, where are you taking me with the Agape Project?  What is the next step?

It would not be hard for you to implement the BoW site.

It seems so daunting.

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Sinning More Than I Know

Lord, I confess and repent of my anger today. Please forgive me. I immediately knew that I had sinned against you.

Michael, I forgive you. Again, you recognized immediately that you had sinned. This is progress. You also recognized that this sin was a sin of pride – you weren’t accepting reality for what it was (you lacked control of a situation), and that made you angry.

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Still on First Base

Lord, I recognize that I need to focus on being vulnerable with you. May I first ask whether you agree that my heart is sufficiently conditioned through the first stage of Humility?

It would be nice to say yes, but you’re not even quite there yet.

Man… really? I’m still on first base?

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The Progression of Communion with Christ

I was just reviewing some of my notes on the Agape Project (the name the Lord provided for the ministry I am being called toward), and realized that I’m only (maybe) half way through the progression that the Lord revealed to me for the process of communion and intimacy with Christ. The progression, as I’ve understood it from the Lord, is Humility > Vulnerability > Acceptance > Obedience.

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Disciplining My Daughter

I pray in the name of Jesus Christ.  Lord, …

Michael, don’t start. You’re distracted. Come back when you can focus on me.

Ok.

…

Lord, I ask for your guidance tonight. I am so saddened by my loss of temper with [my daughter]. How can I be a better father to her? How can I help her to understand how to listen and obey?

That’s a good question Michael. Let me know when you figure it out.

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Putting the Lord in the Drivers Seat

Today, I decided that when I am being productive at lunch (praying, Bible study, Agape Project, freelancing), I will use the passenger seat.  This gives me more room (away from the steering wheel), as well as metaphorically frees up the driver’s seat for the Lord.  So, in my mind, the Lord is now in the driver’s seat.  I think that’s a valuable concept to hang on to.

Proof

Lord, I am here. Again, I must apologize for my lack of consistency. You are asking for daily, and I have not complied. Why do I not comply?

Distraction. It’s a simple matter of priorities.

I think that part of the problem is that [my wife] doesn’t know that I have these intentions, and doesn’t even know about this blog. I suppose I feel like she’ll think I’m nuts for believing that I’m speaking to and hearing from God.

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Under Attack

Lord, I’m feeling overwhelmed. There’s always so many tasks, so much to do.

Michael, you’re under attack.

Attack? By Satan?

Satan’s attention is more on you now than ever before. Satan’s attention is limited, but you’re becoming recognized as a threat. He doesn’t want you to continue on this path.

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Inheritance

Lord, I praise you. Thank you for who you are. Thank you for the opportunity to choose you. Thank you for your love; I’m certainly not worthy of it. Thank you for the transforming work you are doing in my life. I recognize the fruit of your labor in my life, and I pray that your presence in me will bring others closer to you.

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